♡ bt he still whispers to me, "death is prettie sweet"
hi ok um gosh i haven't blogged in forever.. ummh but today i had lotsa thoughts specifically abt death n memorial.. graveyards ♡
i used to go visit them for my dad n grandma.. ehe ummh whn i ws littl i actually used to think hmmh if you wnna keep tha dead close why not just bury em in your backyard ? thn they'll rlie b with you forever.... but um eheh no now i knda get tha reason for cemeteries.. or my guess at least ♡
the open memorial makes it.. more memorial ? people can go nd visit wayyy past everyone who's close to thm is gone too.. tht way,, in a way.. they live on evn longer ♡ in memory yknow..? as long as smeone knows abt you, thinks abt you, your contributions n belongings n creations still exist.. you still live as a concept ♡ ithnk tht's beautiful..
tht's part of why i go to thrift stores often too.. (othr thn generally jst thinkin old stuff is nicer than new mass-produced flimsy borin no personality stuff :c n believin alot in reuse reduce recycle too.. aa..) there's a chance smthin i got came frm smeone dead.. or killin an era.. etc etc.. perhaps jst housecleanin c: either way it had a story n part of tht is now with me.. n if i decide to clean things out or meet my fate, i n everyone bfore me will b part of smeone else too.. everyone is connected n.n it's so super sweet to think abt.. ♡
evn if i dnt get anythin i rly like to peruse,, ♡ it's walkin through a house of memories n personalities n partial graves.. ummh likewise tht's why i like to visit graveyards ♡ all the graves hav names n dates, messages.. smtimes partial obituries,, tht's my favorite.. i'd like to learn abt tha dead to help preserve tht memory.. ummh if i had a bncha free time n money i'd love to go down n clean all the graves n leave flowers for everyone.. bt i wldnt do tht now cos um it's super disrespectful to touch graves of ppl you dunno ithnk.. mayb i'd jst bring everyone flowers ♡ eek eek but eek wht if i bring ones they didnt like.. ok bad idea still nvrmind <\3 but i'd still like to go n learn n keep thm company..
oh um also,, old internet n.n tha web's a cemetary itself if you think abt it.. whn you die all your accounts n sites stay frozen in time unless you get banned post-death or smthin.. <\3 bt i also like to look through profiles of ppl who have likely passed.. esp old sites on the internet archive ♡ mch older.. n they evn hav memorial sites for me to skim too ♡
morbid... knda.. i'm not scared of death bcos death's all ovr me ♡